i really wish i knew what i wanted from him. i am happy we are talking again but cant help but be disappointed with the lack of contact, yet when he contacted a few times in one week i was freaked out. i just dont feel like they are happy to have me back again.
sigh. it sucks when i get those days when i miss him and the gang. 5 years have past and it still bothers me. i dont think i would want to get in contact again because things just wouldnt be the same, it just makes me really sad that the situation happened in the first place. i have such a big family as well and am terrifed of speaking to any of them in case it results in us meeting again at some point. its really not fair.
i can not tell you how happy i am that i can still meet up with her after not seeing her for nearly 2 years and 4 hours pass in what seems like minutes :)
she truely is one of those people who is always going to be there, and today just verified that for me.
this fact makes me more happy than i can put into words :)
My Uni course rocks. Instead of working on coursework I am currently trying to work out:
- How much it will cost to make cupcakes - Who I can get to come show art at an event I am holding which will be awesome - Writing a CV (which helps me at the moment since I'm looking for a job) - How I'm going to dress myself up to be the character I'm playing in the 10 mintue video we have to make